Thursday, January 26, 2012

the world in a glass?

so while being out in about last night for a few hours, i started to ponder, why do "these" people think that im " that girl" ? i know these people dont have any relavence to my life, but i just wonder why or what impression i have given off to be labeled.

 someone told me this week at a pub that i am "always" drunk. ....we are at a bar, and thats the only time i see you is at this bar....who ISNT drunk here? isnt that what people do at the bar? .... Its a place to go unwind from your day or week and just let loose and enjoy good company. these words set heavy with me because i used to have a drinking problem.. and maybe some would say i still do and always will. but ive straightened my act up alot. ive learned to only drink to have a good time, not because your pissed off at the world. so, .... those words have bothered me this past week. and the person did apologize to me after seeing me visibly upset. but, do some people just think that , that is who i am? if you dig deeper, you will see there is a lot of substance here.

i guess this is so upsetting to me because i believe im a lot more than " that girl." ive been told by others how great of a  person i am, or how fun  i am to be around, etc. but then someone can say that, and its like all the good attributes have been stripped away.

i suppose in this insecure world we live in, we've learnded to second guess ourselves probably more than what we should. this has just been on my mind today and i thought i would get it off my chest. thank you for listening, guys and gals!


until next time,
your go to girl

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