as the day comes to an end....

why is it every night before bed im consumed with an overwhelming amount of thoughts? maybe its my age....20 something, single, .....and at this very moment you start to realize that the timeline you built for yourself just hasnt panned out. you realize you are almost 30 and that cute little family with the two car garage and dream home just isnt there. i like to believe in the whole "carpe diem" thing, but lets face it, ....sometimes its difficult. being single these days are tough. and with valentines day right around the corner, every kissy faced couple seems to be throwing it in your face. ... by no means is it their fault, but damn, when u dont have it , the green eyed monster seems to come alive.

you've always got those people that say the same damn things to you " oh your young," , " you have plenty of time" , ...or my favorite " dont rush it, it will happen for you." ha! ...my biological clock is ticking! and i want a back rub! lol ..

is it normal that when night falls we seem to think about all these things that we feel we are lacking in life? what about all the things we have to be greatful for?... i dont know about any of you, but when its day time, i can see all these things!...but BAM, just about that time your feeling like a bum sitting on the couch before bed it hits you....your suddenly bored, your alone, why am i not cuddled up with a good lookin guy watching this crappy lifetime movie??? where in the hell do these thoughts come from?

and even though we all know that ex's are ex's for a reason,....for some unexplained reason they run across your mind just about the time your really getting into your own personal pitty party. or better yet, a night out with the girls can easily become a drunk texting nightmare to the ex....then when u wake up in the morning the regret sets in. .... why does being in a relationship seem to be such a important to-do on one's list. have we let this define who we are? have we forgot who we are without a side kick?

well, that is all for tonight. as for me, one thing is guranteed. the sun will rise tomorrow and it will most definitely be a brand new day! the pitty party ends when the sun arises! stay classy singles! you are all beautiful!

until next time,
your go to girl