the real 16 and pregnant

i really have to wonder why morgan freeman ever got involved with something like teen mom...or 16 and pregnant. i feel like we are advertising that it is ok for our teens to get pregnant. it makes my stomach turn everytime i watch that show..and its on all the damn time.

when i was 16, i found out i was pregnant. but this unfortunately was before i got out of my abusive relationship. i felt like my whole world was ending. i hadnt even finished highschool. i was so ashamed and embarrassed to tell my mom that i was pregnant. when i did finally tell my parents of course they were not happy but what could they do. my mom learned to except the fact and supported my decision. we even went yard saleing for baby clothes together. my father was not accepting of this. he didnt want anything to do with the idea.

as for my boyfriend ( my child's father) , he said in the beginning he would be there for me but he wasnt. i remember a specific incadent that was the deciding factor in ending our relationship. i remember i came over to his house to discuss a plan for the baby. i was balling my eyes out. and then he said what i will never forget..." if you dont stop crying i will punch you in the stomach and you wont have anything to cry about."...i knew at that moment i had to escape the relationship that had trapped me for almost 2 years.

i remember my first doctor's appt. how exciting, we get to hear the baby's hear beat! the morning of the appt. i arrived at my boyfriend's house to pick him up. and to my surprise he was still in bed. i was pissed. for whatever reason he made an excuse why he suddenly wanted to drive seperately ( which made no sense) . so i gave in and said whatever, lets just go. with him following behind me in his car i made the first exit onto the highway....he didnt follow. there was no time to turn around. and we didnt have cell phones at this time. i was 16 and went to my first doctors appt by myself.

i remember feeling utter disgust. and feeling more alone than ever. i could never understand why he didnt follow. and was sleep more important than his unborn child?

so, this is just short  version of my "16 and pregnant" true life story. there is a lot on those mtv shows that you dont see. what about all the countless nights of crying? i havent seen that one yet. im done ranting. lol...but seriously someone should take that crap off our tv's.

until next time,
your go to girl
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