le sigh

does anyone else doubt theirself as much as i do?? i mean honestly, sometimes i go through these slumps where i just think that i am this blob of a person. and that im just not nice enough, not good enough, and not pretty enough for this world. where the hell did this ideal come from? sometimes i think that is my lack of having a man around that makes me feel that way. i mean geez its been forever since i had one in my life. ...but still i should be happy anyways.... and sometimes i am...but most of the time my self esteem is pretty down in the dumps. and it doesnt help that everyone in the media is beautiful and tan...flawless.... ehh, i just need to get over it. ....see ya next time readers!