Dead on the Inside

Gawsh...why do I always feel so godamn dead inside? I came home to a bottle of wine just because I'd been feeling so damn low all day today. And now that the wine has worn off, I'm just back to feeling so ugly on the inside. What the hell is wrong with me that I can't just let go and feel real happiness?  Will I ever just feel like a normal human being? I feel like I've just given up on myself and my dreams. Sometimes I just feel like I can't find what I'm living for. does anyone else feel this way? Geez, I gotta stop being so damn hard on myself, and just love who I am. Le sigh....

Until next time,
Your go to girl

lazy and lovely

so ive been contimplating things a lot lately. is it wrong for me to not want to work and have the finer things in life? because seriously, i really need a man to swoop in and spoil the shit outta me. i mean, somewhere in my mind, i feel like i should NOT have to work but i should always have a pocket full of money. oh, and i should have a hot man at my every beck and call.

why couldnt i have been born into tons of money, where i spend my days shopping and laying out by a pool? and while laying out by the pool my hands and feet would be perfectly manicured and my makeup equally perfected. the biggest worry of my day would be applying enough SPF. ok, maybe im going a bit overboard. but seriously, can a girl get SOME of those things??.... maybe the sexy man and the pedi/ mani part. ...oh and of course my makeup will always look amazing.

i honestly dont know of any men who could deal with that.... haha. i feel like im fishing in a sea of married ...fish.

what about the lottery? does anyone really win the lottery anymore? maybe that would be a better solution. the odds of me winning the lottery are probably greater than me acting like a total gold digger and getting hitched..le sigh....

until next time,
your go to girl
www.your-go.blogspot.com

fem boys do not communicate like women

all men are the same...truely. even the gay boys. .. i have a gay friend. i always think of him as one of the girls. he will text me alot and want to hang out but then always flakes out on me. so ill find myself texting, and calling and i get delayed texts and unanswered phone calls. so ive come to the conclusion, seriously, all men are the same when it comes to communication hahaha. i just figured since he was more feminine than my other guy friends that maybe he would think a little more like a woman. ha! i was wrong.

there really isnt any point to this post, just something i was thinking on hahahaha. but truely, i love my gay boys :) you all enjoy your day! we are having beautiful weather here!

until next time,
your go to girl

current events

happy saturday readers. its been several days since my last post and i do apologize. ive been sooo busy! so, to get things started,....current events....none. hahahaha . yeah i know, pretty lame . i dont find myself speechless too often, but today is one of those days. and imagine that, no hangover.

on recent escapades i did learn that most attractive and charming men are married...find this out before you buy them a shot! ummm, lets see, sweat bands that say "dude" are back in style. wear them proud. and always, dance. even if you have two left feet. sometimes i just dance about in circles until i get dizzy. hahaha im sure its quite the spectacle.

so anyways, its the weekend guys! have fun. have laughs. and be merry...and have a shot,...or two, or eight.. ;0) dont drink and drive guys. im off to work for the evening, everyone be safe and hit me up on here. you can always reach me on my fb page! "like" me and lets start chatting!

until next time,
your go to girl
www.your-go.blogspot.com

Weekend Escapades

Hello readers!! It's been an eventful weekend. Hope everyone had a safe and festive mardi gras. My weekend consisted of wine and being called snooki by three bald guys. Who I then immediately touched each and everyone of their bald heads and literally " duck duck goosed" them. Except for the goose was bald. Hahaha. I also crashed a birthday party and seen some old friends from highschool. So I had my fair share of fun.
Biggest lesson learned this weekend,....it is nearly impossible to make a bed buddy anymore than just a friend. Although that person may send mixed signals , ya just shouldn't go there. Or perhaps maybe this person is developing some real feelings...le sigh, idk, I can never figure these things out. So I've decided to once again take a step back before some permanent damage is done.

But all in all, great weekend. Hope all of u had fun. I gotta get back to work. Much love to ya!

Until next time,
Your go to girl

sexy time or set back?

can a friend,...thats a fuck buddy...become something more than just one or the other?? or can the two together never exist? i looked up at the stars last night and wondered how my heart has become so broken. and then for a minute in pure intoxication, i can forget about it, for just a minute or two. and even though ive set out only for a fuck buddy, sometimes i look in his eyes and i want to make something more of the way he looks into mine. i so badly long for companionship but no one is suitable. i need someone with depth with a playful side. someone that can look into my eyes and know exactly how i feel. i dont want someone thats like everyone else, i want someone different. someone that intrigues my mind....not bore me to death with blah blah cars blah blah fast cars...food beer sleep...typical..

until next time,
your go to girl

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